Wanna know something crazy? The last blog post I made was the day before we got engaged! And I simply had no idea what was about to come!We went to Michigan the weekend of the 23rd to spend some time with my brother while my dad was over seas working. My sister came up as well because she was planning to work from Michigan the following week.
Christopher and I knew we wanted to go to Spicer's Orchard to go shopping for some of our favorite wine- cranberry!! He had mentioned that he wanted to go apple picking, and I agreed with him though I figured there would be no apples to pick since it is WINTER and was literally 10 degrees that weekend.
Well we made it to the Orchard, and I guess Christopher mumbled that all the trees are dead under his breath as we pulled up to the Orchard (Brittany and Zach we
re with us). We went into the orchard to get the wine, some cider, and some donuts for the non-gluten intolerant. We put everything in the c
ar and were ready to go! Except Christopher kept asking if we were going to walk around. I was very non-cooperative because it was FREEZING. Brittany convinced me to walk over to the cider viewing window--but it was closed. So then I was ready. But Christopher was not! He wondered off into the apple trees, in the snow. I eventually followed, found a frozen apple and threw it at the ground-- ready to get going! (Brittany was silently hoping i would not be a bitch at this moment!). Christopher eventually grabbed my arm, told me he loved me and told me that I am his best friend. He got on one knee in the snow, and asked me to marry him. It all happened so QUICK! I was just totally not expecting it and NEVER clued into it! It was so perfect. I was so happy to be surprised, to have my siblings there, and to have the man of my dreams ask me to be his wife.
It was such a joy to call our family and friends- though our family already knew! He had spoken to my dad the week prior, and had told his family as well. It felt incredible to feel celebrated by our loved ones.
It was very hard for me to not be able to tell my mom, to show her my ring, and to celebrate this incredible time of my life with her. It can be so incredibly hard to explain to other people just how difficult it is to not have my momma here anymore. Our family is unlike a lot that I know--we talk all the time, tell each other the good and the bad, share in victories and losses, and are there for one another no matter what. I miss that about my mom. She was the number one cheerleader in our family. No matter what, she was there- physically or figuratively- whenever I needed her. And in moments of stress or intense joy, she is who I want. Not because I don't have other people in my life to turn to, but because for my entire life she was THAT person for me. I love my mom so much, and I miss her more each and every day.