Lent started a couple of weeks ago. Or maybe last week. Or maybe 3 weeks ago. I have no concept of time.
Anyways. I obviously didn't give up food (I never eat fast food, candy, or pop. I also can't have SO many other things that it seemed unnatural). I didn't want to give up swearing because I like swearing. And I am already doing a Bible reading plan and and exercise plan. So I had no clue what to do.
Then...I was at the bar with Lisa and Panda, and when we were talking I mentioned that I had resolved that I wasn't too fat or too ugly. I was SO proud of myself!! They were not. So..for lent, I am working on maintaining a positive view towards my body and myself. Meaning that I don't want to be critical towards the way I look or towards who I am for 40 days.
Point? We are all critical beings in nature, but at the end of the day the way I look doesn't matter. But my happiness, my contribution to the world, and how much I take advantage of life DOES matter. I'd much rather spend time on those things than on worrying about how I look or worrying about what people think of me (Which I am doing right now, fail). In the end, I just want to have more peace in my life, to love myself more, and to be able to accept where I'm at in life.
Anyways. I obviously didn't give up food (I never eat fast food, candy, or pop. I also can't have SO many other things that it seemed unnatural). I didn't want to give up swearing because I like swearing. And I am already doing a Bible reading plan and and exercise plan. So I had no clue what to do.
Then...I was at the bar with Lisa and Panda, and when we were talking I mentioned that I had resolved that I wasn't too fat or too ugly. I was SO proud of myself!! They were not. So..for lent, I am working on maintaining a positive view towards my body and myself. Meaning that I don't want to be critical towards the way I look or towards who I am for 40 days.
Point? We are all critical beings in nature, but at the end of the day the way I look doesn't matter. But my happiness, my contribution to the world, and how much I take advantage of life DOES matter. I'd much rather spend time on those things than on worrying about how I look or worrying about what people think of me (Which I am doing right now, fail). In the end, I just want to have more peace in my life, to love myself more, and to be able to accept where I'm at in life.
"I didn't want to give up swearing because I like swearing."
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh you crack me up! But I love that idea :) You are beautiful!!