Sunday, December 20, 2015

The Fears

I've never experienced true anxiety, that is until I say a "plus" sign on a pregnancy test, and I quickly became terrified of everything I felt and experienced, worried my greatest gift could be taken from me.

Since feeling bambino move, a lot of my anxieties have dissipated. When i worry I haven't felt a kick or a flutter in awhile, another one happens and I'm reminded of the miracle growing within.

Despite the anxieties, the illness, the exhaustion, and the ailments- I can't imagine a more magical experience in life.  I look at myself in the mirror and am a bit terrified- but when I think of the little person I will meet in just 12ish weeks I'm awestruck once again. I'm so grateful God has chosen me to mother a child. And I'm so so blessed.